Sunday, February 29, 2004

"People, dear sweet people" (continued)

(Continued from below...)

And so I sat in Mrs. Henry's class, daydreaming.  I had written most of the poem before Mrs. Henry realized I wasn't paying attention.  She walked up and grabbed the piece of paper off my desk.  I quietly said good-bye to my poem because I was sure she would crumple it up and toss it in the trash.  Instead, she read it and was very quiet.  She then placed the paper back down, smiled and said, "very nice but
finish it later."  I did, in the next class.... Although only words from a naive 11 year old girl, this poetry is my only published piece of work.  On a whim, one day I sent this poem to the Boston Globe.  I was only 12 and was thrilled when they wrote back saying they would publish it in their Sunday paper.  True to their word my poem was published in the Sunday paper.  In the kids section of the funny paper!  I was disappointed; not because of my poem's placement, but because someone had taken the liberty to edit my poem so much, that I hardly recognized it anymore. Like Mrs. Henry almost did to my poem a year earlier, I tossed the published version in the trash.

picture by Gary Jacobson


"Another Soldier Gone"

People, dear sweet people,
Gather to the steeple.
A war is on,
Some soldiers gone,
Some bullets fly,
You hear a curdling cry.
Another soldier is gone.
You hear a bang,
A churchbell rang,
Another soldier is gone.
You hear a boom,
In the hospital there is no room;
So another soldier is gone.
In come the tanks,
Men rushing out of their ranks.
Soon more young men
Come marching in,
All too soon to die.

Back at home a young wife weeps
From sorrow and pain.
The little one's tears form
A puddle of rain.
Then you hear a bang,
Another churchbell rang.
The war is over,
But all the soldiers are gone....

Written in 1973 by Michelle/s0ngbird1962

Wednesday, February 25, 2004

"People, dear sweet people"

Over the A Shau Valley 

picture by Gary Jacobson....

I began writing poetry at the age of eleven.  That was the year that I found out about the war in Vietnam.  Yes, I lived a sheltered life, my parent's thought it was best.  The Vietnam war began before I was born and I don't blame my parent's from shielding me from the horrors of war.  They protected the innocence of my childhood.  I grew up practicing bomb-drills at school.  When the alarm went off, I would dutifully cover my head and crawl under the desk.  I thought these drills were always exciting.   Of course I knew there had been wars, but I was unaware that there was still a war raging.  Ironically the day I became aware of the war, was the day the Vietnam war was coming to an end. A cease-fire was declared.  I remember that day so clearly....  It was a bright sunny day and I was practicing the piano in the livingroom.  I heard a fire truck siren wail outside. Upon opening the door, my ears were filled with the sounds of sirens and churchbells pealing in the distance.  There were people outside clapping & others nearby were setting off fireworks.  My Mom and I stood by the door listening, watching.  After about a minute I asked, "Mom, what's happening?"  She said, "The war is over...."  I exclaimed, "There was a war?"  

I wrote this first poem at age eleven in Mrs. Henry's science class.  She was a stern teacher who demanded your attention at all times.  Unfortunately for me, I've always been a daydreamer.  Unless the subject interested me, my mind wandered elsewhere.  On this day my mind was on the war and so I began to write,  "People, dear sweet people, gather to the steeple...."

**To be continued,,,,,

Sunday, February 22, 2004

Sunday Morning News

Isn't this picture cute?  I just love the way that they are working together, my little partners in crime. I guess I won't find it so cute, when they figure out how to hoist the other up to undo locks on doors.  Because we have a pool one of my greatest fears are they will figure out the door locks and get outside unnoticed.  Hey, that's one good thing about winter, a respite from pool worries.  You know, I've been such a worrier lately.  I worry about EVERYTHING.  Wonder what that's all about?  Guessing that's what parenthood does to a person. Yesterday my "worry mode" was in high gear.  Not even sure why.  Just had a feeling of impending doom, like something wasn't quite right with the world.  It was one of those days that I just wanted everyone to stay inside out of harm's way.  But of course that isn't reasonable, life must go on....

The dog-sitting is going pretty good. The biggest problem we are having is that Brandy (the beagle) is such an escape artist. Yesterday morning she escaped out the front door.  Spencer bolted after her wearing only his boxer shorts and socks in 30 degree weather. Where is the camera when you need it? After chasing her down the street and through some mud, much to the amusement of our neighbors, he finally caught her. Too funny....

Last night we went to a monster truck rally at the Worcester Centrum.  Getting there was a bit harried, taking an indirect route and a wrong turn was frustrating.  But we made it, 20 minutes late, and everyone had a great time.  We didn't get home until midnight, I hoped that the babies would sleep in, no such luck.  How can they be so bright eyed and bushy tailed while I feel so tired?  This morning I couldn't find the sippy cups.  While looking under the sofa I mumbled under my breath, "Where are those freakin' cups?"  A few seconds later, Sammi walks up behind me with both cups in her hands and says, "Mom, here are the freakin' cups...."  :::Note to self: mumble even quieter under your breath:::

Friday, February 20, 2004

Iceberg, Oh Iceberg

Iceberg, oh iceberg, melt away please....

Float away to some distant sea.

It's been a cold, long winter here

I'm tired of wearing long underwear.

No more wooley mittens, scarves or boots,

Just want to wear my birthday suit.

Throw aside sweats that hide all my faults,

G'bye hot chocolate, I want to drink malts.

Refusing to shovel anymore snow,

Need to feel beach sand between my toes.

Please winter loosen your icy grip,

One more fall and I'll break my hip.

I've asked you nicely, why won't you go?

Quit dragging your feet, don't move so slow.

Iceberg, oh iceberg, melt away please....

Float away to some distant sea.   

written by: Michelle/s0ngbird1962   

Wednesday, February 18, 2004

I'm NOT jealous!

The bad news is that our trip to Florida was a bust. But the good news is I get to watch my sister's beagle, named Brandy, for 2 weeks while her family goes to Florida.  Ok, so I'm just trying to be upbeat and not jealous, lol.  Oooooh, did I mention that my OTHER sister is also going to Florida for 2 weeks with her family too? :::sigh::: (I'm NOT jealous, I'm NOT jealous...)  Nope, not working.

I had doubts about watching her, because in the past our dog Vixen and Brandy have had their differences.  I also worried that maybe Brandy would be too interested in my bunny that lives in the kitchen.  And then there's our old cat Felix to consider....  Because plans to go to FL were last minute, all the kennels  were filled. Well, just look at that picture. Those sad brown eyes, how could I say no?  So, heeeeeere's Brandy.  Whoa, just had a Johnny Carson flashback.  I'm actually pleased at how well the transition is going, much better than I anticipated.

As soon as Brandy got in the van, she scoffed up a pack of crackers that were for the babies.  Sammi began crying. Then while on the ride home, she snapped at Spencer as he tried to take away a petrified food scrap she scouted out from underneath the seat in our van.  Upon arriving home, Vixen and Brandy had a scuffle and then right before bed she christened our livingroom rug with a puddle of pee. Today Brandy has settled in and is fun to have around.  She has a very stubborn but sweet personality, is awesome with the babies, only one small scuffle today with Vixen over a dog treat, no pee accidents, and she just LOVES Spencer.  She is his shadow.  Her silly antics and shrill beagle howls have had us all laughing today.  Laughter is always good, always bonding, always soothing to the soul.... Side-note to my sister:  You'd better bring me a good souvenir or we're keeping the dog, lol.

Monday, February 16, 2004

Oh, Spring....

This morning at dawn I heard some birds chirping a hopeful tune.  Could Spring be just around the corner?

It's been almost four months since I've heard a bird sing.  Most fly south for the winter, the birds who stay and wait out the cold New England winters apparently have nothing to sing about.  Sunrises on frigid winter mornings are greeted by an eerie silence.  The world still sleeps....

As we were running errands today, I decided that I would look around for signs of Spring.  Surely the birds must know something that I don't.   But alas, the trees are still barren.  Their empty branches stretch upward towards the sky seeking the warmth of the sun.  The ground is still covered by a thin layer of snow.  A few patches of grass can be seen, but it is brown and lifeless.  The tulip and daffodil bulbs that lie eagerly beneath the soil to bloom, cannot break thru the frozen earth yet.  Apparently I'm not the only person who cannot sense the coming of Spring.  There were many houses with Christmas wreaths, lights and garland still decorating their porches and front doors.  There were no teens skateboarding, basketball courts remain deserted.  Instead I saw little children ice skating on wobbly ankles and parents pushing their children down snowy hills on plastic sleds.  Even the weatherman offered no hope today.  He forcasted that a nor'easter will be here by tomorrow, so shovels stand ready by the back door.  No, there are no signs of Spring here....

Yet, this morning at dawn I heard some birds chirping a hopeful tune.  Could Spring be just around the corner?   

Saturday, February 14, 2004

Happy Valentine's Day Mike

If there were no words,
No way to speak,
I would still hear you.

If there were no tears,
No way to feel inside,
I'd still feel for you.

And even if the sun refused to shine,
Even if romance ran out of rhyme,
You would still have my heart
Until the end of time.
You're all I need
My love, my Valentine.....

~Written by J. Kugell and J. Brickman 

Honey, I just want to tell you how much I love you, I don't think I tell you nearly enough.  I know I have found my forever Valentine in you.   I tried writing you a poem last night while working the night shift, but the only things that kept coming up were silly, tired 3:00am thoughts... "Roses are red, Violets are blue....."     :::yawn::: Damn, I wish I were in bed.   Ok, start over.... "Roses are red, Violets are blue...."   Think I'll just buy him a card in the morning....

Anyways, Happy Valentines Day! Now where's my heart shaped box of chocolates?    

Thursday, February 12, 2004

The Big Green Chair

Well, there they are, sitting on the same big green chair watching TV.  Both are still quite sick, but I think they are on the road to recovery from this horrible upper respiratory infection.  The antibiotics seem to be helping them and last night was the first time in 6 days that they both slept through the night. :::doing the happy dance::: I can't tell you how good it felt to spend the night in my bed, 7 hours of uninterrupted sleep.  Heaven!   

Our local drugstore has sent us a thank-you note in the mail; thanking us for being one of their best customers this past week.  Ok, so they didn't really, but it sure would be appreciated.  We have gone through 2 bottles of children's tylenol, 1 bottle of benadryl, too many boxes of kleenex, Vicks vapor rub, 2 prescriptions of antibiotics, jugs of gatorade/orange juice and 1 yankee candle hot cocoa scent, yum!!   I've put on a few pounds in the past few days and I blame THAT candle.  In my attempts to escape this infection, I have been using alot of Purell hand sanitizer.  I really like it, but a word to the wise, don't immediately rub your eyes after using, lol. 

For my sanity, I have decided that I need "me" time.  And so last night after the babes were in bed, I sat at the piano.  It has been at least a year.... Amazingly, although rusty, my fingers knew what to do.  Within a few minutes, I was playing and singing some of my old favorite songs.  I forgot how soothing to the soul my music is to me.  Stress be gone and take this cold/flu with you....

 *AOL picked me to be in their top 5 this week... I feel so emotionally moooooooooo-ved.  "They like me, they REALLY like me" 

Monday, February 9, 2004

Knock, knock.... "Who's there?"

Just when I thought we dodged the bullet on getting sick, that nasty bug somehow found us.  Who gave him directions?  Guess all my good luck from knocking on wood ran out.  Knocking on formica doesn't count?  Spencer came home this morning from spending the weekend with his father, looking pale and feeling nauseated.  Sent him to bed.....  Last night Sammi and I spent another sleepless night in the livingroom.  She would try to sleep, but coughing fits just wouldn't allow her to get any real rest.  As I watched her doze during a short nap this morning, my *mom instincts* told me that this was more than just a cold.  So acting upon that inner voice I brought her in to the Dr's to get checked.

I'm so glad I did.  The Dr. suspects that she has left lower lobe pneumonia.  He said he didn't like what he heard "lots of rice krispies".  Because she is still drinking, he didn't need to hospitalize her.  He's started her on antibiotics for 10 days.  If she becomes any worse or if she isn't any better in 3 days, it's back to the Dr's for her. My poor Sam.  She's being so good about it all.  She's not complaining & still trying to play but tires easily.  Tonight, once again Sammi cannot get comfortable enough to settle down.  It's 1am and she is awake sitting on the couch coughing like she smokes 2 packs a day . Another night of no sleeping....

Unfortunately Mikey is showing symptoms that he is coming down with this cold too.  His drippy nose has progressed to a deep cough.  I predict by weeks end I'll be back at the Dr's and have another little body sitting on the couch keeping Sammi and I company.  :::sigh::: Well, going to see if I can settle her down somehow.  I won't lie, it's scary watching your little ones so sick.  Think I'll say a prayer tonight, it's been awhile.    

"Hey God, it's me Michelle...."                           

Sunday, February 8, 2004

A snowy day....

Friday morning we woke up to ominous skies.  By 11am, much to the delight of my little ones, snow began falling.  I really didn't want to bring them out to play, because Sammi has come down with a terrible cold.  But as you can see from the above picture, Sammi's pathetic plea's won in the end.  I bundled them both up and took them out to play for about 15 minutes.  I'm not the only one with cabin fever.... Unfortunately, no signs of Spring yet.

 Nothing like having a sick child to take care of any "bored" feelings I was having.  That'll teach me to complain, lol.  Saturday morning she started with a high fever & runny nose.  Trying to keep up with the amount of snot dripping out of that cute lil nose is a full-time job.  Ughhhhhh.....I hate boogers!  Her cold has progressed to a congested cough that comes from her toes.  Poor baby, isn't sleeping at all.  Last night after sleeping from 9:30pm - midnight, she (and of course, I) was up for the night.   She finally went to sleep today at 2pm for a short 45 minute nap & now she is back up watching cartoons on the couch.  I called the Dr's today and I discovered I was giving her the wrong medicine for her cold at night.  I've been giving her PediaCare multi-symptom cough syrup at night, thinking it would help her sleep.  WRONG!  Apparently there is sudafed in there, which is not condusive to sleep, actually has the opposite effect.  So tonight it is benadryl & tylenol so-she-(and her mother)-can-sleep-medicine.  Wish they made baby Nyquil....  

Mikey just got up from his nap and his nose is a bit drippy.  ::::sigh::::  Off to the drugstore to stock up on Kleenex.  Think it's going to be a long few days.  Did I mention how much I hate boogers? 

Wednesday, February 4, 2004

I Know I Should Write....

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I know I should write, but I'm just tired....

I'm uninspired

                   and unmotivated...

I've been so busy, but still I'm bored.

                                            Does that make sense?

I need a hobby.  Got a new sewing machine for Christmas.  I sewed one seam, opened a pattern and looked at it, felt overwhelmed and put it away and there it sits.  I haven't touched my piano or guitar in about a year, and when I sing, it's a lullabye.  Just wondering where I've gone?  Where is the Michelle time?  It seems that the only time I am alone these days is in the bathroom with the door locked.  Maybe I can understand now why my Dad used to spend so much time in there. :::smile::::

Don't get me wrong.  I know I am blessed.  I have an incredible husband who loves me, three great kids who occasionally drive me crazy, what more could a woman want?  Ok, I want "me" time because I know I should write, but I'm just tired....

I'm uninspired

                     and unmotivated... 

I've been so busy, but still I'm bored.

                                              Does that make sense?